weekly write up 10/13/2024
Oct. 14th, 2024 08:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
trainerlyra did i forget yesterday bc i am too consumed with metaphor refantazio? yes. am i gonna go through this really fast to get back to playing? also yes
monday: after my Issues, so to speak, on sunday, kyle decided to call out of work to take care of me, which was very nice. he apparently let his clients know that he needed to stay home to "care for his wife" which is the vaguest and nicest way possible to say "my wife has been having mental breakdowns on a routine basis so i am staying home to make sure everything is Okay" lmao. anyways it was a really quiet workday on monday which was great, i didn't have much to do and basically relaxed/read seisub fic/etc. kyle also cooked me dinner which was nice bc usually i cook lol. he made me my fave easy meal of vegan orange chicken and farro:
what else did i even do. uhhh. man. i played genshin? zzz? i uhhh. OH YEAH i finally hit pity like HARD pity to get the new dendro boy:
behold kyle's pc set up bc my laptop is slowly (very quickly) dying so i don't feel comfortable running smth like genshin on it rn lmao. anyways! i cannot believe he took me to fucking HARD PITY but here he is. now i gotta save up for the new emo kid. he's cute. oh i also watched the first episode of haigakure with leo/mari/the amatsuki crew! it's. not great!!! i believe the manga will be very good when i read it bc i liked amatsuki a lot but the anime for this is soooooo. it's so static lol. anyway.
that's like almost the majority of my monday LOL the other thing was pokemon sleep being like "A rank!!! you slept so well this week!!!!" and having my sleep week look like this:
like lmao. thank you pokemon sleep. i know i did so great hitting six hours one singular night!
tuesday: we mark this day with this panel in the clamp calendar:
he's so. ough subaru i love you i am so sorry your soulmate has to be seishirou (jk i love seishirou very much too. i just acknowledge he sucks at being in love)
anyways tuesday. what did i do tuesday. i uhhh. hm. OH YEAH i've been writing. this like. emotional support fic? not really it's a "i'm experiencing bad mental health so i'm going to inflict in on subaru because i think we have very similar brands of mental illness" fic. and it was supposed to be short thing just to get some feelings off my chest but it's turned into (so far) 7k and also smut so that did not go the way i intended it to but what else is fucking new with me and writing LOL. it'll be done probs this week i wanna have a few things done for kinktober
oh right jorie came over bc her shitty abusive brother showed up at the house and she was like no. can't deal with him in my space gotta Go. for context, this friend had a series of health crises between last year & the beginning of this, both physical and mental. had to get a hysterectomy at the end of last year due to the health issues, had issues with working bc of mental health plummeting from body breaking, etc. it was a bad time! and then at the beginning of this year her wife who she had been with for uh 13 years? married for like 8 of those? decided she hated her now and divorced her, ran her out of the apartment bc jorie had no money to pay expensive rent with no job and medical bills so she had to move in with her not great parents, took jorie's car AND cat, and basically told her to fuck off and only talk through lawyers. REALLY bad time!!!! so kyle and i have been trying to see her fairly often and invite her to things so she can feel like a person again. so yeah she came over tuesday night and was going to stay over but decided that she wanted to stand her ground with her brother which i was very proud of her for. however kyle also got us pizza and jalepeno poppers for the occasion and despite stomach being bad it was delightful (in the moment)
uhhh other things on tuesday... kyle was at work late i think. we got groceries? god i do NOT remember. again i need to start trying to do smaller entries throughout the week on top of this lol so i can remember things. i literally have no idea.
moving on, then,
wednesday: we once more mark this day with clamp calendar:
syaosaku my beloved... fun fact i think i've mentioned here but did you know i hated trc in 7th grade when i was REALLY getting into clamp? because syaosaku in ccs were my only comfort ship that wasn't Going Through It lmao. i was in the trenches, as jo says, for sasusaku. this was right around the time the dub got to episode 109 the bench scene (iykyk) and so i was like oh syaosaku are in trc... they'll heal my wounded heart..... and then that did NOT happen and baby mtizi was pissed. i swore off of trc. hilariously, my best friend's now-girlfriend who is my ex-best friend (it's very funny and there are no hard feelings here) was team trc completely while i was an xxxholic girlie, so we jokingly fought about it a lot lol. they have grown on me a lot tho, in general my feelings on trc are much more positive. it's still not my favorite clamp series by any stretch of the imagination but it is very good and i enjoyed the absolutely insane ambitiousness of trc/holic being what they are.
anyways uhhh wednesday. let's see. i worked, obviously, it was a fine work day i think?? kyle continued his habit of playing with my stuffed animals:
he calls my ikea shark "shork" and i have just decided this is right. OH WEDNESDAY I WASHED ALL THE BEDDING. i think that was wednesday. might have been another day earlier. but i did all of it and i was very proud of myself lol. win for depression. i also picked up sumatriptan and zofran prescriptions, took the zofran basically immediately bc my god my stomach has not stopped being stupid and awful for like two weeks now.
mmm what else. wow i have no idea once more. completely blank LOL
thursday: another day, another good ship in calendar:
sorashi makes me so wibbly. the hair kiss is soooo. ough. i really like them!!! they're my fave hets in x!!!! i love this calendar it makes me emo a lot lol. thursday i decided to "treat myself" with dinosaur egg oatmeal breakfast... i had bought the box on a whim with the groceries and was like okay yeah why not:
this is combo'd with the raisin & spice oatmeal bc i had one packet left and decided to combine them lol
normally we'd see jason, but he has been super fucking busy bc new store opening + holiday season upcoming = bad time in retail! so he just did not even see my snaps lol which is sad i miss him a lot when i don't see him but it's okay. there was also this ADORABLE new ccs clothing collab:
which ofc i could not resist. i got the pink set <333 i don't let myself collect much for ccs bc there's just SO much so i tend to stick to things like that are usable/home items etc. like i have a ccs rug for my desk, a ton of ccs jewelry, that kinda thing. so this is perfectly in line with that lol. and it looks SO cute man i couldn't resist it. though it was horrifyingly expensive for a loungewear set but i know thats my fault mayla is not exactly known for being cheap lol.
our upstairs neighbor has a little garden and brought up some vegetables! which was very nice. i still need to use the eggplants... probably tomorrow..... but she importantly gave us a bunch of cherry tomatoes so i made some gnocchi for dinner:
regrettably we did NOT see the aurora.... we are too in the city the light pollution is really strong here. oh well... maybe someday......
anyways kyle got home relatively late that day, so thursday was mostly uhhhh. hm. work, writing, reading a ton of fic oh my god, and preparing for Friday.
friday: the Day Has Come.
and by that, i mean the day i ubereats myself a video game from gamestop because my collector's edition was delayed by a day and i REFUSED to not have this game on release. i do this a lot actually with video games... bc i'm insane... generally i either return it or give the second copy to friends! but still i recognize how insane this behavior is lol. too bad! it makes me happy!
so after work i immediately hopped to it!!!! and played for 5 hours straight lol. kyle ended up going to goth night at a local bar with will, so i got to play without feeling bad which is always great lol. i like the game a LOT. i'm not surprised, i love persona, and this is just persona but medieval times, so... of course i like it.... but the writing has been good and it's been a good mix of taking itself seriously and being humorous because nobody is one dimensional even in a tense situation.
kyle got home at around 2:30am, which is REALLY late for him, he needs on average 9-10 hours of sleep, so i was pretty shocked lol. he had a great time tho which made me happy. i don't go to bars unless i can bring my switch and this was dance floor only so no thank you. he really liked it tho! so that's good. he ended up leaving his car at jorie's house and taking the t home to be safe bc he'd been smoking, which i appreciated lol. he was very obviously not safe to drive when he got home he was so funny. we ended up hanging out and talking until about 4, where he passed out and i read until 5ish in the morning before going to sleep myself. all in all a good night!
saturday: metaphor. was my whole day. kyle woke up (predictably) at around 1pm, and left pretty immediately to go get his car, and i went STRAIGHT to playing game. my collector's box showed up:
kyle wants to hang the map up which i am all for since our decor is slightly nautical themed (at my insistence lol) so it will match. i really got this for the steelbook and the map, but also bc i knew i would regret it if i didn't get the big fancy box and ended up loving the game which was a 99% guarantee. so i played for uhhhh 11 hours straight, more or less, while kyle ended up hanging out with nick all day bc he knew i would be playing and that was fine lol. when he got home he let me tell him everything in the game so far which i appreciated. i love my husband <3
sunday: was a work day, at my other job, sigh. so in person! i say these things like it's not my choice to keep it and as if it's not once every other week lol. but unfortunately for me! VERY unfortunately! the fire alarm was broken so it was going off at random times for random lengths of time the entire eight hours :) so i got a terrible migraine :) the only thing that saved me was the insane pokemon teraleak which i think i'll actually make a whole entry about later this week bc i am an insane person and not only have downloaded a lot of those files myself and know kind of everything that's been coming out. it was SO much fun to follow along to!!!
like genuinely i think this was the best weekend i've had in months. maybe since like june or july. i have not felt that good about being alive in a long while lmao. i was just so enthralled by all the shit coming in, and WOW there was a lot of really interesting stuff, but also knowing i had refantazio to look forward to after work.... very good combo.
kyle and i were supposed to go to the mall to grab some stuff from lush & grab me some new bras as we had a casualty (aka one of the two bras i actually like wearing finally broke) but we ended up bagging it and just getting dinner at panera instead:
though i'm a little bummed i forgot to take a pic of my outfit i was particularly pleased with it. oh well. i'll put it together again this week for pics. it was a himekaji look with my new liz lisa skirt hehe. anyways once we got home i was released to Game while he headed to bed early d/t working early on mondays.
did you notice guys.... did you notice i did not have a single mental breakdown this week..... this has been the first week in god knows how long that went by the ENTIRE SEVEN DAYS without me losing it over something small..... i'm so proud lol.
last week's goals: i did not finish a fic because instead seisub decided to take over my brain and make me start writing something new and equally long/insane. but i did write like 12k last week so good enough i guess lol
hopes for next week: can i make it a whole fourteen days without breaking down? jury's still out on that one. tune in next time...
monday: after my Issues, so to speak, on sunday, kyle decided to call out of work to take care of me, which was very nice. he apparently let his clients know that he needed to stay home to "care for his wife" which is the vaguest and nicest way possible to say "my wife has been having mental breakdowns on a routine basis so i am staying home to make sure everything is Okay" lmao. anyways it was a really quiet workday on monday which was great, i didn't have much to do and basically relaxed/read seisub fic/etc. kyle also cooked me dinner which was nice bc usually i cook lol. he made me my fave easy meal of vegan orange chicken and farro:
what else did i even do. uhhh. man. i played genshin? zzz? i uhhh. OH YEAH i finally hit pity like HARD pity to get the new dendro boy:
behold kyle's pc set up bc my laptop is slowly (very quickly) dying so i don't feel comfortable running smth like genshin on it rn lmao. anyways! i cannot believe he took me to fucking HARD PITY but here he is. now i gotta save up for the new emo kid. he's cute. oh i also watched the first episode of haigakure with leo/mari/the amatsuki crew! it's. not great!!! i believe the manga will be very good when i read it bc i liked amatsuki a lot but the anime for this is soooooo. it's so static lol. anyway.
that's like almost the majority of my monday LOL the other thing was pokemon sleep being like "A rank!!! you slept so well this week!!!!" and having my sleep week look like this:
like lmao. thank you pokemon sleep. i know i did so great hitting six hours one singular night!
tuesday: we mark this day with this panel in the clamp calendar:
he's so. ough subaru i love you i am so sorry your soulmate has to be seishirou (jk i love seishirou very much too. i just acknowledge he sucks at being in love)
anyways tuesday. what did i do tuesday. i uhhh. hm. OH YEAH i've been writing. this like. emotional support fic? not really it's a "i'm experiencing bad mental health so i'm going to inflict in on subaru because i think we have very similar brands of mental illness" fic. and it was supposed to be short thing just to get some feelings off my chest but it's turned into (so far) 7k and also smut so that did not go the way i intended it to but what else is fucking new with me and writing LOL. it'll be done probs this week i wanna have a few things done for kinktober
oh right jorie came over bc her shitty abusive brother showed up at the house and she was like no. can't deal with him in my space gotta Go. for context, this friend had a series of health crises between last year & the beginning of this, both physical and mental. had to get a hysterectomy at the end of last year due to the health issues, had issues with working bc of mental health plummeting from body breaking, etc. it was a bad time! and then at the beginning of this year her wife who she had been with for uh 13 years? married for like 8 of those? decided she hated her now and divorced her, ran her out of the apartment bc jorie had no money to pay expensive rent with no job and medical bills so she had to move in with her not great parents, took jorie's car AND cat, and basically told her to fuck off and only talk through lawyers. REALLY bad time!!!! so kyle and i have been trying to see her fairly often and invite her to things so she can feel like a person again. so yeah she came over tuesday night and was going to stay over but decided that she wanted to stand her ground with her brother which i was very proud of her for. however kyle also got us pizza and jalepeno poppers for the occasion and despite stomach being bad it was delightful (in the moment)
uhhh other things on tuesday... kyle was at work late i think. we got groceries? god i do NOT remember. again i need to start trying to do smaller entries throughout the week on top of this lol so i can remember things. i literally have no idea.
moving on, then,
wednesday: we once more mark this day with clamp calendar:
syaosaku my beloved... fun fact i think i've mentioned here but did you know i hated trc in 7th grade when i was REALLY getting into clamp? because syaosaku in ccs were my only comfort ship that wasn't Going Through It lmao. i was in the trenches, as jo says, for sasusaku. this was right around the time the dub got to episode 109 the bench scene (iykyk) and so i was like oh syaosaku are in trc... they'll heal my wounded heart..... and then that did NOT happen and baby mtizi was pissed. i swore off of trc. hilariously, my best friend's now-girlfriend who is my ex-best friend (it's very funny and there are no hard feelings here) was team trc completely while i was an xxxholic girlie, so we jokingly fought about it a lot lol. they have grown on me a lot tho, in general my feelings on trc are much more positive. it's still not my favorite clamp series by any stretch of the imagination but it is very good and i enjoyed the absolutely insane ambitiousness of trc/holic being what they are.
anyways uhhh wednesday. let's see. i worked, obviously, it was a fine work day i think?? kyle continued his habit of playing with my stuffed animals:
he calls my ikea shark "shork" and i have just decided this is right. OH WEDNESDAY I WASHED ALL THE BEDDING. i think that was wednesday. might have been another day earlier. but i did all of it and i was very proud of myself lol. win for depression. i also picked up sumatriptan and zofran prescriptions, took the zofran basically immediately bc my god my stomach has not stopped being stupid and awful for like two weeks now.
mmm what else. wow i have no idea once more. completely blank LOL
thursday: another day, another good ship in calendar:
sorashi makes me so wibbly. the hair kiss is soooo. ough. i really like them!!! they're my fave hets in x!!!! i love this calendar it makes me emo a lot lol. thursday i decided to "treat myself" with dinosaur egg oatmeal breakfast... i had bought the box on a whim with the groceries and was like okay yeah why not:
this is combo'd with the raisin & spice oatmeal bc i had one packet left and decided to combine them lol
normally we'd see jason, but he has been super fucking busy bc new store opening + holiday season upcoming = bad time in retail! so he just did not even see my snaps lol which is sad i miss him a lot when i don't see him but it's okay. there was also this ADORABLE new ccs clothing collab:
which ofc i could not resist. i got the pink set <333 i don't let myself collect much for ccs bc there's just SO much so i tend to stick to things like that are usable/home items etc. like i have a ccs rug for my desk, a ton of ccs jewelry, that kinda thing. so this is perfectly in line with that lol. and it looks SO cute man i couldn't resist it. though it was horrifyingly expensive for a loungewear set but i know thats my fault mayla is not exactly known for being cheap lol.
our upstairs neighbor has a little garden and brought up some vegetables! which was very nice. i still need to use the eggplants... probably tomorrow..... but she importantly gave us a bunch of cherry tomatoes so i made some gnocchi for dinner:
regrettably we did NOT see the aurora.... we are too in the city the light pollution is really strong here. oh well... maybe someday......
anyways kyle got home relatively late that day, so thursday was mostly uhhhh. hm. work, writing, reading a ton of fic oh my god, and preparing for Friday.
friday: the Day Has Come.
and by that, i mean the day i ubereats myself a video game from gamestop because my collector's edition was delayed by a day and i REFUSED to not have this game on release. i do this a lot actually with video games... bc i'm insane... generally i either return it or give the second copy to friends! but still i recognize how insane this behavior is lol. too bad! it makes me happy!
so after work i immediately hopped to it!!!! and played for 5 hours straight lol. kyle ended up going to goth night at a local bar with will, so i got to play without feeling bad which is always great lol. i like the game a LOT. i'm not surprised, i love persona, and this is just persona but medieval times, so... of course i like it.... but the writing has been good and it's been a good mix of taking itself seriously and being humorous because nobody is one dimensional even in a tense situation.
kyle got home at around 2:30am, which is REALLY late for him, he needs on average 9-10 hours of sleep, so i was pretty shocked lol. he had a great time tho which made me happy. i don't go to bars unless i can bring my switch and this was dance floor only so no thank you. he really liked it tho! so that's good. he ended up leaving his car at jorie's house and taking the t home to be safe bc he'd been smoking, which i appreciated lol. he was very obviously not safe to drive when he got home he was so funny. we ended up hanging out and talking until about 4, where he passed out and i read until 5ish in the morning before going to sleep myself. all in all a good night!
saturday: metaphor. was my whole day. kyle woke up (predictably) at around 1pm, and left pretty immediately to go get his car, and i went STRAIGHT to playing game. my collector's box showed up:
kyle wants to hang the map up which i am all for since our decor is slightly nautical themed (at my insistence lol) so it will match. i really got this for the steelbook and the map, but also bc i knew i would regret it if i didn't get the big fancy box and ended up loving the game which was a 99% guarantee. so i played for uhhhh 11 hours straight, more or less, while kyle ended up hanging out with nick all day bc he knew i would be playing and that was fine lol. when he got home he let me tell him everything in the game so far which i appreciated. i love my husband <3
sunday: was a work day, at my other job, sigh. so in person! i say these things like it's not my choice to keep it and as if it's not once every other week lol. but unfortunately for me! VERY unfortunately! the fire alarm was broken so it was going off at random times for random lengths of time the entire eight hours :) so i got a terrible migraine :) the only thing that saved me was the insane pokemon teraleak which i think i'll actually make a whole entry about later this week bc i am an insane person and not only have downloaded a lot of those files myself and know kind of everything that's been coming out. it was SO much fun to follow along to!!!
like genuinely i think this was the best weekend i've had in months. maybe since like june or july. i have not felt that good about being alive in a long while lmao. i was just so enthralled by all the shit coming in, and WOW there was a lot of really interesting stuff, but also knowing i had refantazio to look forward to after work.... very good combo.
kyle and i were supposed to go to the mall to grab some stuff from lush & grab me some new bras as we had a casualty (aka one of the two bras i actually like wearing finally broke) but we ended up bagging it and just getting dinner at panera instead:
though i'm a little bummed i forgot to take a pic of my outfit i was particularly pleased with it. oh well. i'll put it together again this week for pics. it was a himekaji look with my new liz lisa skirt hehe. anyways once we got home i was released to Game while he headed to bed early d/t working early on mondays.
did you notice guys.... did you notice i did not have a single mental breakdown this week..... this has been the first week in god knows how long that went by the ENTIRE SEVEN DAYS without me losing it over something small..... i'm so proud lol.
last week's goals: i did not finish a fic because instead seisub decided to take over my brain and make me start writing something new and equally long/insane. but i did write like 12k last week so good enough i guess lol
hopes for next week: can i make it a whole fourteen days without breaking down? jury's still out on that one. tune in next time...
