weekly write up 9/15/2024
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trainerlyraalright i'm writing this one with a killer migraine let's go
monday: for such an off week it started off great lol. folger's flash presents!!!
when i saw this, i knew it was gonna be good LOL op did NOT disappoint. please give it a look if you too are a fan of wise/belle from zzz & fuck or die mutual dubcon: here!
my person enjoyed their taichi/hikari sickfic fluff which was good to see, i always feel strange giving fluff to an event that's so heavily skewed towards smut, but i saw their fave trope was sickfic and i'm like oh hey, the canonically sick hikari exists... i had a lot of fun writing that; while i think takeru/hikari is the ultimate digimon adventure otp, i love MOST hikari ships as she's my favorite character in the series. my first tattoo was the crest of light for a reason! so it was a lot of fun getting to revisit writing digimon fic.
anyways. other than work, did i like... DO anything monday..... i don't think i did..... it's been a long week monday feels like it was years ago lol
tuesday: this was, without a doubt, the absolute highlight of the week. even with some stupid things that ended up happening LOL. let's get those out of the way first before i talk about the absolute BLAST of an evening we had.
a friend of mine made a new discord server for her close friends, and at first it was mostly people i knew and/or had known tangentially through her. editors all kind of know each other after a certain point, or at least know OF each other lol, esp since a lot of us are old guard and have been doing the amv thing since 2006-2008 era. the better days lol. anyways, so that was fine, it was getting a bit crowded in the server but i was not surprised bc she is very outgoing and makes friends anywhere. she's just such a likable person lol we all love her. unfortunately this also meant that my ex best friend/(ex hopefully) cyber stalker ended up in there bc they still edit lol
there is, as i'm sure you can imagine from reading that, a LOT to unpack there with the way things went down. one day i will do a good write up of it. but it boils down to, friend was not treating me with respect, friend also confessed their boyfriend at the time who they had initially claimed had left the friends he had that were literal neo nazis had not, in fact, stopped talking to the neo nazis, i said holy shit that is way too many lines that you have just crossed bc not only are you treating me like shit you also brought someone dangerous into our personal spaces, cue very messy falling out. that happened a few years ago. unfortunately they did not take this very well and continued over and over on every single platform known to mankind to contact me again including trying to go through my husband who they had barely spoken to before and getting their new (maybe ex now??) boyfriend l...last year? two years ago? to bait me into conversation using info about a mutual friend who had taken her own life to get me to respond. lmao. yeah it's a lot anyways
they showed up there and i was like mmmmm. can i be in a group chat with them? can i be the bigger person and just pretend they aren't there? no i don't think i can because i'm too concerned the stalking would start up again and i'm not here for that. so i had to send a very uncomfortable message to the friend who made the server being like "i'm not gonna name names bc my hope is that they've changed and have grown past this but i had a really messy falling out with someone in there and i can't for my own sanity be in a chat with them i'm so sorry". of course my friend understood but i still feel bad/guilty about it lol. so that was no fun!
NEXT is my trigun deluxe edition arrived.
the size and the print quality are genuinely fantastic, i shouldn't have taken it out of the plastic to see that bc it makes it hard to want to return it lmfao. but my GOD is this thing poor quality in every other respect i'm so fuckin disappointed. crappy translation aside, an entire year's delay to have grammar issues like using the wrong "your" (you're job's pretty tough!) and idioms that make zero sense (for the sake of the afterlife, don't make me shoot you) AND HAVING THE GOLD FOIL STRAIGHT RUB OFF FOR SO MANY PEOPLE i cannot condone keeping this thing lmao. i'm so sad. i wanted to be so excited for it. it's a BEAUTIFUL book and the size is so nice. trigun is a dense fucking manga, reading it in full size would be so nice!
but i digress. let's talk about the fun part of tuesday.
KARAOKE!
i hate public karaoke but private booths? lets fuckin go lmao. there's a place about 10 minutes from me so i wanted to go to celebrate my (now belated) birthday. amazingly, most of everyone was able to go! so it was me, kyle, will, j, aria, matt, and jorie! this place was wicked nice, you could order food and drinks and whatnot and each room had its own PRIVATE BATHROOM. the machines were all in mandarin so it was fun trying to figure out what did what lol but they had a great selection of songs.
of course i brought the little guys! we mostly did meme songs lol but it was such a blast. my throat hurt SO MUCH by the end of it. initially we'd booked the room for two hours but we ended up staying four lmfao. not to doxx myself, but if you're in the greater boston area and want info on the place... lmk LOL. we also ordered soooo much food and drinks. i had fries, there were also scallion pancakes, wings for the meat eating friends, fried dumplings... and while i can't drink alcohol, my friends sure can. i think there were a full four rounds of drinks.... on a tuesday night LOL mostly bc jason doesn't work wednesdays atm, so he was like. i'm going crazy idgaf. and everyone followed suit. seriously though, absolutely fantastic experience. we all want to go back and do it again! maybe without the like $200 worth of food/alcohol but still lol. highlights of song selections include
carrot cake but like, with chocolate? kyle and i devoured them.
wednesday: see i was GOING to post a wip wednesday fic thing (and start doing that at least biweekly) but you'll see why that didn't work out lol. work was fine, really. nothing crazy. i remember very little from the work day lol. after work, though, i got the new covid booster. walking home i got a little treat, because i knew what was imminent:
(sweets date! just like in canon<3)
sooo i am unfortunately extremely effected by the covid vaccines. by all vaccines, actually. my uhhh hpv vaccine, that i got like only 2 years ago bc my mother was a psycho anti vaxxer and i literally didn't even know that was a thing until my doctor mentioned it and i was like yes please give me every vaccine my mother neglected to give me that my dad didn't know about (she, apparently, lied a few times. about this. to him). gave me such a bad reaction i actually went BACK TO THE DOCTOR to make sure nothing went horribly wrong. my arm swelled up like a balloon i straight up couldnt move it for three or four days it was miserable. covid vaccines are unfortunately the worst, though. bare minimum i get a fever-not-fever bc dysautonomia and EDS temp regulation is wonky, bad headache/nausea, chills, malaise, etc. for a day. basically i think i made it like two hours after getting the shot before i crawled into bed shaking and throwing up lmfao. i was soooo miserable. i remember very little, i threw up at least once? and then read fic in bed until i passed out lmao
thursday: alas, i actually remember nothing from my first 2-ish hours of work lol. i got up feeling even worse, bc it's always worse the next day, lmao. when kyle woke up at 10ish, he took one look at on the couch and set the bed up for me :') he then made me tea and brought me some snacks and made sure my work laptop was plugged in before heading to work himself.
i remember VERY LITTLE from my work day i was very sick. i threw up twice maybe? i very rarely have actual fevers anymore bc my body is shit at regulating literally everything, but i had the chills/sweats, the malaise, the awful painful swelling feeling my legs get when i have a fever, and i was soooo nauseous. working was awful. i was so useless and didn't get much done which always feels really bad at a new job lmfao.
hilariously, though, i did get this:
which absolutely sent me. good to know i am now the rock bottom of health LOL. oh, the other important thing i learned thursday: the med change is WORKING, apparently, i just. got too used to functioning i thought it was supposed to do more. the adhd meds really do work lol focusing was so hard even outside of being sick.
friday: friday the 13th! cursed indeed. feeling a little better, but not 100% yet. work was slightly more bearable friday. i spent a lot of my work day on the phone with kyle while i was doing stuff, because he was leaving that night to go to will's cabin down in RI. i was invited - i went last august, it was really nice! - but i had work sunday at my part time place, and with management the way that it is... i figured it was easier just to keep the shift than try and fight them to switch me to another week. plus, my dad is getting older and though i don't like to think about it, working at my part time place is at least a guarantee i'll see him since it's a good halfway point between our houses & he brings me lunch and hangs out for an hour or so with me. this might sound weird but it's a concierge job and also my father ran the building for 42 years and there was a point in time the majority of the employees, desk & maintenance staff, were related to me, so everyone who lives there loves seeing my dad and thus nobody cares LOL. ANYWAYS.
while we were on the phone, it was really funny actually. like this was a very sweet and considerate conversation we were having, talking about some finance stressors and kyle was right in the middle of reassuring me about it, when i cut him off to scream OH MY GOD I SAW A MOUSE.
now listen i LOVE rodents. mice, rats, ferrets, whatever it is, i love them. i love handling them. there is no pet i dislike, just some i have healthy fear for lol. i even love seeing them outdoors! i get so excited when i see a mouse in a field. i even got excited the one time i visited NYC and saw a rat run down the sidewalk lmfao. but in my house? when i am not expecting to see them? no. nope nope nope nope nope.
so i start freaking out LOL and kyle's like ok. ok it's gonna be fine go ahead and buy some bait or traps or whatever its gonna be fine. so when he gets home he looks in the kitchen and yup, wouldn't you know it there's a giant fucking hole attached to our radiator in there. so before he packs, he stuffs the hole with tin foil for me lmao. then i help him pack, and off he goes. i was really glad he was going - not bc i like being home alone bc i actually really don't lol but because he needs more breaks from the city and will's cabin is wicked remote and on the water, which he loves.
now it is 8pm ish and there was a mouse in my kitchen not 6 hours ago but i think there is no way it can get back in. so i do my thing, play some video games, feel vaguely uncomfortable about the mouse, start little goody two shoes which matt bought for me on steam for my birthday, do my genshins and zzzs. read some fic. whatever. i make a banger "meal":
(pesto-stuffed tomatoes on sourdough, fucking delicious)
and then i sit on our tiny ass couch to read for a bit at 1ish am and what do i see but A FUCKING MOUSE RUN ACROSS FROM THE KITCHEN INTO THE LIVING ROOM UNDER KYLE'S DESK and disappear. i make an extremely unintelligible shout noise, yell OH MY GOD NOT AGAIN, and then am petrified bc as far as i know there are no holes over in that area of the room. wtf are you doing over there dude. so i vigilantly watch the area and i see it CLIMBING UP OUR BEANBAG/THE WALL???? and scream again (mind you it is 1am) and it hides. and then i'm still staring while texting friends my panic and the damn thing is now CLIMBING ON THE WINDOWSILL and this time i shout so angrily by accident i think it got scared and fled. where did it flee too? not the faintest idea.
see, i have major medical anxiety. i have so much already wrong with my body its really hard to be like "its ridiculous to assume you'll get this ultra rare disease from the mice" when i have EDS, a rare genetic issue lmao. so i don't even start trying to will myself to bed until almost 4 in the morning...
oh but before that, a friend of mine created a new server on discord for all clamp series but w the word problematic in there lol. if you are interested lmk and i will DM.... but right so of course i had to show off my ccs cel:
i'm addicted to buying cels now. i want 50.
RIGHT SO i don't get into bed until 4ish end up passing out closer to 6. i'm so anxious about the mouse that it's hard to treat lol.
saturday: since kyle was away, i just.... well first i stared at everywhere the mouse could be with a lot of anxiety. then i ordered starbucks bc i was mildly afraid to step foot in the kitchen. then i took a shower lol. then i played more goody two shoes, did some writing, just kinda.. puttered around? OH i started importing my giant seisub fic writing folder to gdrive instead of keeping notes on my phone lololol. its just a collection of all canon material i have, translations me or other people have done, and then resources about things like onmyouji history & onmyoujitsu, and general tokyo things. fashion, maps, pictures, culture notes.... do i do this for literally any other ship i write for? no those are just vibes. clamp is just Like That.
mostly the day passes by without incident. no mice sightings, thankfully. still too anxious to touch kyle's desk, tho LOL. since i worked the next day, i was like oh i should go to bed "early". aka i got into bed at almost 1am. i ended up putting the tv on and just fell asleep to youtube videos playing haha. unfortunately it was not very restful sleep. i woke up a lot because bladder was acting up, plus anxiety re mouse.
sunday: morning was a DISASTER lol. most of my alarms didnt go off and idk WHY, but it meant i woke up 15 minutes before i had to be at work... which is 20 minutes minimum away pff. i manage to only be 15ish minutes late, but the caveat being i forgot my medication. this proved to be a mistake more on that later.
work was pleasant! a lot of people gave me free food? someone brought down these little bite sized pieces of various cake things, someone gave me homegrown tomatoes from their plant, someone gave me little minute chocolate mousse cheesecake bites, and i saw my dad and he looked well! the only unpleasant part was that due to forgetting my meds, specifically i think the wellbutrin, i turn into an awful blob of MIGRAINE but i still manage to push through not only the day but also to finish an mep part i'd been meaning to finish weeks ago lol. i got home, downed 5 things of advil, and decided i was sleeping for the rest of the day LOL.
that did not happen, alas. i read for awhile, got up, waited. kyle got home! hung out for a bit. he too can't find the mouse so...,..hm. now he's in bed and i still have this awful migraine but the new cool patches are at least helping take the edge off but i haven't eaten and feel like crappppp. so! that is how we end the week and why if there are typos or other weirdness just dont even mention them. i am half passing out as i type this bc i am SO fucking exhausted and i hurt very bad lol.
last week's goals: nope didn't finish got derailed by SICK next question
hopes for next week: finish two books!
monday: for such an off week it started off great lol. folger's flash presents!!!
when i saw this, i knew it was gonna be good LOL op did NOT disappoint. please give it a look if you too are a fan of wise/belle from zzz & fuck or die mutual dubcon: here!
my person enjoyed their taichi/hikari sickfic fluff which was good to see, i always feel strange giving fluff to an event that's so heavily skewed towards smut, but i saw their fave trope was sickfic and i'm like oh hey, the canonically sick hikari exists... i had a lot of fun writing that; while i think takeru/hikari is the ultimate digimon adventure otp, i love MOST hikari ships as she's my favorite character in the series. my first tattoo was the crest of light for a reason! so it was a lot of fun getting to revisit writing digimon fic.
anyways. other than work, did i like... DO anything monday..... i don't think i did..... it's been a long week monday feels like it was years ago lol
tuesday: this was, without a doubt, the absolute highlight of the week. even with some stupid things that ended up happening LOL. let's get those out of the way first before i talk about the absolute BLAST of an evening we had.
a friend of mine made a new discord server for her close friends, and at first it was mostly people i knew and/or had known tangentially through her. editors all kind of know each other after a certain point, or at least know OF each other lol, esp since a lot of us are old guard and have been doing the amv thing since 2006-2008 era. the better days lol. anyways, so that was fine, it was getting a bit crowded in the server but i was not surprised bc she is very outgoing and makes friends anywhere. she's just such a likable person lol we all love her. unfortunately this also meant that my ex best friend/(ex hopefully) cyber stalker ended up in there bc they still edit lol
there is, as i'm sure you can imagine from reading that, a LOT to unpack there with the way things went down. one day i will do a good write up of it. but it boils down to, friend was not treating me with respect, friend also confessed their boyfriend at the time who they had initially claimed had left the friends he had that were literal neo nazis had not, in fact, stopped talking to the neo nazis, i said holy shit that is way too many lines that you have just crossed bc not only are you treating me like shit you also brought someone dangerous into our personal spaces, cue very messy falling out. that happened a few years ago. unfortunately they did not take this very well and continued over and over on every single platform known to mankind to contact me again including trying to go through my husband who they had barely spoken to before and getting their new (maybe ex now??) boyfriend l...last year? two years ago? to bait me into conversation using info about a mutual friend who had taken her own life to get me to respond. lmao. yeah it's a lot anyways
they showed up there and i was like mmmmm. can i be in a group chat with them? can i be the bigger person and just pretend they aren't there? no i don't think i can because i'm too concerned the stalking would start up again and i'm not here for that. so i had to send a very uncomfortable message to the friend who made the server being like "i'm not gonna name names bc my hope is that they've changed and have grown past this but i had a really messy falling out with someone in there and i can't for my own sanity be in a chat with them i'm so sorry". of course my friend understood but i still feel bad/guilty about it lol. so that was no fun!
NEXT is my trigun deluxe edition arrived.
the size and the print quality are genuinely fantastic, i shouldn't have taken it out of the plastic to see that bc it makes it hard to want to return it lmfao. but my GOD is this thing poor quality in every other respect i'm so fuckin disappointed. crappy translation aside, an entire year's delay to have grammar issues like using the wrong "your" (you're job's pretty tough!) and idioms that make zero sense (for the sake of the afterlife, don't make me shoot you) AND HAVING THE GOLD FOIL STRAIGHT RUB OFF FOR SO MANY PEOPLE i cannot condone keeping this thing lmao. i'm so sad. i wanted to be so excited for it. it's a BEAUTIFUL book and the size is so nice. trigun is a dense fucking manga, reading it in full size would be so nice!
but i digress. let's talk about the fun part of tuesday.
KARAOKE!
i hate public karaoke but private booths? lets fuckin go lmao. there's a place about 10 minutes from me so i wanted to go to celebrate my (now belated) birthday. amazingly, most of everyone was able to go! so it was me, kyle, will, j, aria, matt, and jorie! this place was wicked nice, you could order food and drinks and whatnot and each room had its own PRIVATE BATHROOM. the machines were all in mandarin so it was fun trying to figure out what did what lol but they had a great selection of songs.
of course i brought the little guys! we mostly did meme songs lol but it was such a blast. my throat hurt SO MUCH by the end of it. initially we'd booked the room for two hours but we ended up staying four lmfao. not to doxx myself, but if you're in the greater boston area and want info on the place... lmk LOL. we also ordered soooo much food and drinks. i had fries, there were also scallion pancakes, wings for the meat eating friends, fried dumplings... and while i can't drink alcohol, my friends sure can. i think there were a full four rounds of drinks.... on a tuesday night LOL mostly bc jason doesn't work wednesdays atm, so he was like. i'm going crazy idgaf. and everyone followed suit. seriously though, absolutely fantastic experience. we all want to go back and do it again! maybe without the like $200 worth of food/alcohol but still lol. highlights of song selections include
- me being the only person who could semi-sing to the jp version of face my fears (did not know i could read japanese that fast! that was a confidence booster to get back to my studies!) while it played kh3 footage on screen
- jason and matt doing a fabulous elvis impersonation
- scream-singing dont trust me with everyone all together
- this song
carrot cake but like, with chocolate? kyle and i devoured them.
wednesday: see i was GOING to post a wip wednesday fic thing (and start doing that at least biweekly) but you'll see why that didn't work out lol. work was fine, really. nothing crazy. i remember very little from the work day lol. after work, though, i got the new covid booster. walking home i got a little treat, because i knew what was imminent:
(sweets date! just like in canon<3)
sooo i am unfortunately extremely effected by the covid vaccines. by all vaccines, actually. my uhhh hpv vaccine, that i got like only 2 years ago bc my mother was a psycho anti vaxxer and i literally didn't even know that was a thing until my doctor mentioned it and i was like yes please give me every vaccine my mother neglected to give me that my dad didn't know about (she, apparently, lied a few times. about this. to him). gave me such a bad reaction i actually went BACK TO THE DOCTOR to make sure nothing went horribly wrong. my arm swelled up like a balloon i straight up couldnt move it for three or four days it was miserable. covid vaccines are unfortunately the worst, though. bare minimum i get a fever-not-fever bc dysautonomia and EDS temp regulation is wonky, bad headache/nausea, chills, malaise, etc. for a day. basically i think i made it like two hours after getting the shot before i crawled into bed shaking and throwing up lmfao. i was soooo miserable. i remember very little, i threw up at least once? and then read fic in bed until i passed out lmao
thursday: alas, i actually remember nothing from my first 2-ish hours of work lol. i got up feeling even worse, bc it's always worse the next day, lmao. when kyle woke up at 10ish, he took one look at on the couch and set the bed up for me :') he then made me tea and brought me some snacks and made sure my work laptop was plugged in before heading to work himself.
i remember VERY LITTLE from my work day i was very sick. i threw up twice maybe? i very rarely have actual fevers anymore bc my body is shit at regulating literally everything, but i had the chills/sweats, the malaise, the awful painful swelling feeling my legs get when i have a fever, and i was soooo nauseous. working was awful. i was so useless and didn't get much done which always feels really bad at a new job lmfao.
hilariously, though, i did get this:
which absolutely sent me. good to know i am now the rock bottom of health LOL. oh, the other important thing i learned thursday: the med change is WORKING, apparently, i just. got too used to functioning i thought it was supposed to do more. the adhd meds really do work lol focusing was so hard even outside of being sick.
friday: friday the 13th! cursed indeed. feeling a little better, but not 100% yet. work was slightly more bearable friday. i spent a lot of my work day on the phone with kyle while i was doing stuff, because he was leaving that night to go to will's cabin down in RI. i was invited - i went last august, it was really nice! - but i had work sunday at my part time place, and with management the way that it is... i figured it was easier just to keep the shift than try and fight them to switch me to another week. plus, my dad is getting older and though i don't like to think about it, working at my part time place is at least a guarantee i'll see him since it's a good halfway point between our houses & he brings me lunch and hangs out for an hour or so with me. this might sound weird but it's a concierge job and also my father ran the building for 42 years and there was a point in time the majority of the employees, desk & maintenance staff, were related to me, so everyone who lives there loves seeing my dad and thus nobody cares LOL. ANYWAYS.
while we were on the phone, it was really funny actually. like this was a very sweet and considerate conversation we were having, talking about some finance stressors and kyle was right in the middle of reassuring me about it, when i cut him off to scream OH MY GOD I SAW A MOUSE.
now listen i LOVE rodents. mice, rats, ferrets, whatever it is, i love them. i love handling them. there is no pet i dislike, just some i have healthy fear for lol. i even love seeing them outdoors! i get so excited when i see a mouse in a field. i even got excited the one time i visited NYC and saw a rat run down the sidewalk lmfao. but in my house? when i am not expecting to see them? no. nope nope nope nope nope.
so i start freaking out LOL and kyle's like ok. ok it's gonna be fine go ahead and buy some bait or traps or whatever its gonna be fine. so when he gets home he looks in the kitchen and yup, wouldn't you know it there's a giant fucking hole attached to our radiator in there. so before he packs, he stuffs the hole with tin foil for me lmao. then i help him pack, and off he goes. i was really glad he was going - not bc i like being home alone bc i actually really don't lol but because he needs more breaks from the city and will's cabin is wicked remote and on the water, which he loves.
now it is 8pm ish and there was a mouse in my kitchen not 6 hours ago but i think there is no way it can get back in. so i do my thing, play some video games, feel vaguely uncomfortable about the mouse, start little goody two shoes which matt bought for me on steam for my birthday, do my genshins and zzzs. read some fic. whatever. i make a banger "meal":
(pesto-stuffed tomatoes on sourdough, fucking delicious)
and then i sit on our tiny ass couch to read for a bit at 1ish am and what do i see but A FUCKING MOUSE RUN ACROSS FROM THE KITCHEN INTO THE LIVING ROOM UNDER KYLE'S DESK and disappear. i make an extremely unintelligible shout noise, yell OH MY GOD NOT AGAIN, and then am petrified bc as far as i know there are no holes over in that area of the room. wtf are you doing over there dude. so i vigilantly watch the area and i see it CLIMBING UP OUR BEANBAG/THE WALL???? and scream again (mind you it is 1am) and it hides. and then i'm still staring while texting friends my panic and the damn thing is now CLIMBING ON THE WINDOWSILL and this time i shout so angrily by accident i think it got scared and fled. where did it flee too? not the faintest idea.
see, i have major medical anxiety. i have so much already wrong with my body its really hard to be like "its ridiculous to assume you'll get this ultra rare disease from the mice" when i have EDS, a rare genetic issue lmao. so i don't even start trying to will myself to bed until almost 4 in the morning...
oh but before that, a friend of mine created a new server on discord for all clamp series but w the word problematic in there lol. if you are interested lmk and i will DM.... but right so of course i had to show off my ccs cel:
i'm addicted to buying cels now. i want 50.
RIGHT SO i don't get into bed until 4ish end up passing out closer to 6. i'm so anxious about the mouse that it's hard to treat lol.
saturday: since kyle was away, i just.... well first i stared at everywhere the mouse could be with a lot of anxiety. then i ordered starbucks bc i was mildly afraid to step foot in the kitchen. then i took a shower lol. then i played more goody two shoes, did some writing, just kinda.. puttered around? OH i started importing my giant seisub fic writing folder to gdrive instead of keeping notes on my phone lololol. its just a collection of all canon material i have, translations me or other people have done, and then resources about things like onmyouji history & onmyoujitsu, and general tokyo things. fashion, maps, pictures, culture notes.... do i do this for literally any other ship i write for? no those are just vibes. clamp is just Like That.
mostly the day passes by without incident. no mice sightings, thankfully. still too anxious to touch kyle's desk, tho LOL. since i worked the next day, i was like oh i should go to bed "early". aka i got into bed at almost 1am. i ended up putting the tv on and just fell asleep to youtube videos playing haha. unfortunately it was not very restful sleep. i woke up a lot because bladder was acting up, plus anxiety re mouse.
sunday: morning was a DISASTER lol. most of my alarms didnt go off and idk WHY, but it meant i woke up 15 minutes before i had to be at work... which is 20 minutes minimum away pff. i manage to only be 15ish minutes late, but the caveat being i forgot my medication. this proved to be a mistake more on that later.
work was pleasant! a lot of people gave me free food? someone brought down these little bite sized pieces of various cake things, someone gave me homegrown tomatoes from their plant, someone gave me little minute chocolate mousse cheesecake bites, and i saw my dad and he looked well! the only unpleasant part was that due to forgetting my meds, specifically i think the wellbutrin, i turn into an awful blob of MIGRAINE but i still manage to push through not only the day but also to finish an mep part i'd been meaning to finish weeks ago lol. i got home, downed 5 things of advil, and decided i was sleeping for the rest of the day LOL.
that did not happen, alas. i read for awhile, got up, waited. kyle got home! hung out for a bit. he too can't find the mouse so...,..hm. now he's in bed and i still have this awful migraine but the new cool patches are at least helping take the edge off but i haven't eaten and feel like crappppp. so! that is how we end the week and why if there are typos or other weirdness just dont even mention them. i am half passing out as i type this bc i am SO fucking exhausted and i hurt very bad lol.
last week's goals: nope didn't finish got derailed by SICK next question
hopes for next week: finish two books!
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Date: 2024-09-21 11:34 pm (UTC)Ahaha, thank you, I appreciate it very much. Honestly, I wouldn't want them to be kicked out - they're younger than I am by a good few years and they were really struggling back when everything happened. Doesn't excuse any of it, of course, but I'm genuinely glad they've gotten to a point where they can hold normal friendships/have a good support system again, and thankfully there are other spaces I never have to worry about that in!
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Date: 2024-09-21 11:49 pm (UTC)That's kind of you. I hope they've changed since those days too, and your friend sounds like she's good at keeping in touch with people so you won't lose the connection with her. Glad that's far in your past though, I'm sure it was awful!
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Date: 2024-09-22 12:21 am (UTC)It was not a very fun time! I am glad to be past it for sure. But yeah, my friend is one of the most outgoing people I know, so at least I don't have to worry about that!