weekly write up 9/1/2024
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trainerlyraand we're back... this one is gonna be a little weird w/ new job lol
monday: first day of new job! which means i had to get up early to go into the office and pick up my computer etc and be trained on a few things. i assumed i would have to go in a few times in person, but she didn't want to even consider having me go in again until the week of the 9th, which is very nice to hear.
anyways, the day starts a bit rough... my scheduled uber is going to be 20 minutes late, which despite having it come for about 20 minutes earlier than i needed to leave, boston traffic is... well, boston traffic LOL. so i was freaking out. it took me almost half an hour to get a ride after that which just. sucked so bad lmao. i only managed to be like a few minutes late, which with kyle having a broken wrist and also first day at a place i've never been was easily explainable, but it still made me upset bc i am someone who is like. 20 minutes early to EVERYTHING. my dad was in the military it's like. entirely ingrained into me. but it's fine.
my new boss seems nice. we don't really vibe in a great training/teaching way - the way she is teaching is very hands on which is the thing i struggle with the absolute most. i am very much a "let me play around until i hit a wall and then i will ask" kind of learner. she also keeps trying to over explain the parts of the job i'm already way too familiar with, like insurance, and under explain how things like scheduling works, or who treats what, which has been difficult for me, but it's fine. it's... weird? being back at work after not working between most of april and the last week of august. also just. SO MANY MEETINGS. she really wants the meetings to have my camera on which makes so ough. i know she does not care if i am in pajamas because she is too but i haaaaate seeing myself on camera it makes me so. sigh.
but okay, positives so far that i had noted on monday: she's very nice. she is VERY into separation of work/life. never wants me to do overtime unless i am specifically requesting to. doesn't want me to ever look at my email or chats or anything over the weekend. never wants this job to be in person at all. specifically told me i never ever have to go to outside of work events if that's not my scene. encourages some flex time per month for events, appointments, etc, just asks she knows ahead of time. so i think despite the troubles, it'll all work out. and genuinely, i do like this kind of work. i enjoy data entry and i really enjoy getting insurance benefits etc. i like medical admin work! so to have a fully remote job doing all of that at a VERY QUIET clinic in comparison to the old one i worked at until 2023 - literally the monthly patient count is around what the WEEKLY patient count was at my old place - i am very pleased overall.
i just wish i had like? more time? it was literally like i got the offer letter the same day as my first full interview. i would've liked more than one week to prepare for going back to having so much of my time taken up again. and like, yeah, it's not like i am busy the full 8 hours of the day or w/e, but it's still an adjustment. especially having to go back to going to bed at 2-3 rather than 4-5 lol. i know it doesn't seem that much esp if i'm waking up earlier, but my brain/body REALLY do well on sleep between 4-9. it's like. best rest i can get. hence why i've been able to function on only 3 hours for over half the nights for the past few months... yeah pokemon sleep is very angry with me...... anyways. i got home after about an hour on monday, and promptly did jack shit for the rest of the night until around 2am. lmao
tuesday: first day remote! the work day went fine, i don't remember anything in particular. kyle and i were both in weird places emotionally with so many changes so rapidly. oh actually i do remember something. i screwed up scheduling someone LOL bc i'm not used to their EMR yet. it's. very weird. i don't love it. but i can tell once i am more familiar it will be sooooo much easier than the old one i used was. mostly bc the one i was used to had about a million fucking glitches and crashed on an hourly basis. lmfao.
umm what else did i do. play zzz. lament about the fact that my birthday is in a week. lament about the fact that tokyo babylon vol 4 was delayed. oh! i got a VERY welcome package:
yes, ANOTHER orv tarot deck! i was REALLY excited about this one. for one thing, shortest tarot deck production time i've ever seen? preorders were in april. got it last week of august. crazy fast production time! it's also i think the most gorgeous production i've ever seen. everything is beautiful - the shipping box, the deck box, the entirety of the deck. i'm absolutely in LOVE. gonna give this one a proper moon cleansing during the full moon this month, will probably begin sleeping with it under my pillow next week in preparation!
it was also my fave project sekai character's bday! mizuki my beloved!!! legit mizuki is the only reason i play this game at all. i only care about mizuki. i love my tiny trans child that has my exact fashion sense to the point where my bestie jo saw the renewed outfits that came out and went "you literally own this outfit" and i was like yup. that is literally in my closet right now. anyways it was time for birthday pulls, i only needed 3:
mizuki usually likes to come home <33 i'm only missing.... 3? 4* cards. truly incredible. but yeah that was the extent of my tuesday.
wednesday: more work, obviously. getting in the swing of it ig. i stayed up a little later than i should've, probably, but oh well. what can ya do. umm what happened wednesday. oh yeah i was experiencing incredible rage. just getting so angry. bc of the med change. we went up to 25mg of the adhd meds and it just. made me so pissed off? it was very scary tbh i was like ready to punch my husband over literally nothing.
unfortunately i remember very little about wednesday because of the rage??? i just remember being SO angry. like at the drop of a hat. it was bizarre and i usually have a lot of emotional dysregulation but this was very new. my emotional outbursts usually make sense to me even if they are extreme and very quick to change. like i know why something made me cry, or made me get angry, or made me panic. i do NOT understand any of the rage i was feeling from the meds lmao. so wednesday uh. existed!
thursday: little better on the rage. i was realizing fully i was VERY off kilter tho so i tried to be more aware.
thankfully, jason and his roommates were covid free! so over to jason's we went. he actually was in the middle of packing bc he's moving!!! he and the roomies got a much better place in the city. they even have an extra bedroom!!! the plan i hear for the extra bedroom is to turn it half into a cat playroom for creature and half a table top gaming room since the four of them play a lot of ttrpgs together. anyways, i mostly helped jason pack for the evening:
i folded all his clothes to box them up haha. kyle went out and got us all pizza, which was very appreciated bc other thing about the adhd drugs - i forget to eat more than i already forget to eat! so i actually had not eaten a thing the entire day. oops. but anyways, i missed jason. as usual he let me get my mini nap in on the couch with him while kyle was conked out on the other couch lmfao. also we went to 7/11 but this time we drove, shocking. they still don't have any of the stuff they're importing here yet which blows. i want more convenient rice balls!!! anyways that was fun. i actually like helping friends pack so i had a really nice evening. kyle too, he got to relax with the other roomies which he doesn't get the chance to do often. also aria, one of j's roomies just. gave me some eyeliner?? since she transitioned her makeup game has gotten so fucking good i'm always jealous lmao so i asked what brand her eyeliner was bc it is always impeccable. and she was like "oh i actually have an extra one sec" and just hands me some colourpop black eyeliner. bless her. i love her.
oh also the new mtrench album dropped at midnight going into friday! it bops HARD. i'm a huge fan. so happy they're making music still, i really do love them. seeing them live way back when was such a treat, i'd love to do it again with kyle since he's a big fan too thanks to me showing them to him when we were like 15/17..........
friday: it was a weird one. for one thing, kyle called me and we WERE having an okay conversation but then i think i screwed up with The Rage and so he decided to go straight to will's after work which i cannot blame him. i was being very insufferable and difficult. i too would've probably stayed at a friend's house instead of dealing with me. lmao.
work went fine. i ended up having to sneak off half an hour early (oops) bc i had to run to my psych appointment. i really REALLY like my new psychiatrist so even though her schedule sucks (only at this location 2 days a week, no telehealth) i will put up with it bc my god it is so refreshing to have a doctor that actually LISTENS. but anyways i went to her and was like "idk i am really angry a lot right now" and she took my pulse and my blood pressure and my RESTING heart rate was 130 and my blood pressure was the highest i've ever seen it so she was instantly like "okay NO MORE OF THAT DOSE you are stopping that RIGHT NOW" lmao. it was reassuring to know for SURE that it wasn't me being all angry and awful but the meds, but still, scary lmao. i have a lot of body problems i don't need new heart issues thank you very much. anyways so we're trying 2 10mg throughout the day instead bc 18mg didn't make me angry, and the 10mg was wearing off way too quick for me, so the idea is when it starts wearing i take the second and it should get me through the rest of the (work) day.
then i had to panic call my therapist office about billing bc i knew i had a bill coming up that i still hadn't resolved bc i fucked up and forgot to send the paperwork for the out of network exception..... but it's fine they pushed the bills back until the end of october thankfully. after this week actually i can go back to therapy bc my new insurance is accepted at the office thankfully. which is very good lol. but that was a scare bc my bank account is. sorely lacking until i get my paycheck LOL then after all that i mostly spent friday writing.
saturday: the big outing day! we were doing a little bit of traveling... well i say that but we only went down to RI to visit his parents. my mother in law finally retired, so we were going down to celebrate with a nice dinner, but also because this thing called waterfire was happening, and ALSO because it's my birthday coming up too. 3 birds one stone.
firstly, though, my tokyo babylon vol 4 finally came in saturday morning!
i love the cpc versions. they are just SO nicely printed. i really gotta give it to yenpress on this one. i like this printing a ton.
anyways, after kyle helped out jason with some moving logistics, off we went to RI. i was under the impression - as was kyle - that it would just be us and his parents. but his grandmother and aunt were there too. i love my in laws, really, but i am an introvert and they are the loudest group of extraverts i've ever met in my entire life. first thing was while his grandmother and aunt were getting ready to head to dinner, kyle's dad brought out his old drone to give to kyle. okay to explain my fil does filmography for a living and thus owns a newer drone. his old ("old") 2021 drone he no longer needs, so he's giving kyle some lessons and handing it off, which is super cool. they were flying it around for a bit which was neat as hell. i'd never actually seen one up close before:
anyways, dinner next. we went to some korean place (after i embarrassingly tried to walk in and reserve a table at the wrong restaurant bc i was stressed having to look after his grandmother by myself for a bit) but it's fine it all worked out. the food was SO fucking good:
like holy shit i would go there all the time if i lived close. 10/10 EASY. anyways the dinner itself was... chaotic as usual. to explain, kyle's aunt is extremely, terrifyingly rich, which means she is SO out of touch its something else. very well meaning, very kind, but oh my god i dislike talking to her for long periods of time. his grandmother is also SO sweet and she's really going through it after losing her husband last year and i get it but she's very. um. idk the right word for it. i really do like his family i just find them hard to be around. his parents not so much, i lived with them for so long i am fairly comfortable with them (as comfortable as i can be with parents that aren't my dad, i mean). anyways we also got dessert:
you may be wondering why there is such better lighting on my seisubs. it is bc i was not going to pull them out of my bag with his aunt and grandmother there, but kyle INSISTED, going "no you have to get out your little guys!!!!!" and then i did and my father in law was like "oh i'll put my flashlight on for better lighting" bc again, photo guy, and i was held at gunpoint to take a picture. which i did quickly. then kyle's aunt goes ".... is this a thing? do people do this?" and i tried to say that it was a thing and i wasn't the only person who did this, but then kyle had to make sure she knew it was a Specific Brand of Weeb thing and i was going to die lmfao. really though it was fun his aunt was REAL confused but she had the spirit (told me about a couple she saw on vacation in egypt that took a picture of them with this set of teddy bears in every place they went to).
the actual waterfire thing was SO beautiful i was blown away. this kyle's aunt went home for, which i am secretly grateful for bc i DO like her i promise but she also stresses me out with the way she talks. lmao. anyways the thing was really really pretty and relaxing. i had chosen to wear my one singular pair of flats with my outfit which was a good choice bc i did not know RI had so much cobblestone LOL i should've tho. but yeah please look at this:
so we stayed and did this for awhile, just walking up and down the river looking at the fire and listening to the very calming music. there are legit gondolas like from venice that take people on rides down the river and i really want to do that next time lmao. then we headed back to my in law's place bc she's gotten pie for me as well as a small birthday gift, which was just. extremely thoughtful. every year, she gets me birthday pie bc i hate cake :' ) it's very kind of her. it was really good too!
she also got me a gift card and a new book, and his grandmother gave me a very sweet card and some money as well which is very appreciated. also, my mother in law used shark wrapping paper for me for my book, which i was stupid excited about LOL. kyle and i headed home and got back at around midnight-ish, i got my spotify monthly stats:
and then went to bed bc i had part time job in the morning.
sunday: DISASTER WORK DAY. i won't get into it too much bc i am EXHAUSTED by it and it is also almost 3am so i should probably start wrapping this up? lmao. but okay firstly since the lobby flooded due to some pipes bursting they had 12 really large machine fan things taking out the water. keep in mind these pipes burst TWO WEEKS AGO. WHY ON EARTH ARE THE MACHINES STILL NEEDED? anyways they were really, horribly loud and droning, it basically instantly gave me a migraine. i had to use my noise canceling ear buds, but i had to keep taking them out to talk to people, and noise canceling can only do so much when the noise is that loud and overwhelming and CONSTANT. as kyle puts it, it's a sensory nightmare.
so that sucked! the phones, which broke what, a month ago? still aren't fixed. they TAPED THE THERMOSTAT UP so i couldn't adjust the temp so i was boiling alive all shift, and then there was. this fucking guy. who needed a jump start and asked me (i have no car, i cannot even drive. i do not have a license. lmfao), then he asked if i knew mechanics in the area, which i don't, because i don't drive and kyle just uses somewhere near our apartment for the car, then he asked if triple a would jump start it. this guy just moved into the building mind you. so i had to be EXTRA nice. so i was like okay yeah triple a. then he calls them from his apartment and they come but can't contact him so they leave again. reasonable. he comes down all angry, saying that he'll just sit in the lobby to keep an eye on it for their second attempt that he called in. but then they didn't come because he didn't give them a phone number. so he goes back upstairs and gets his cell phone and i charge it whatever. i tell him to just give them that number and he starts interrupting me and anyways i'm RAMBLING but this dude was really rude and condescending and cut me off when i tried to explain how to answer a call on his phone because he claimed he did not ever use it (which was probably true considering it was an iphone 6 from 10 years ago lmfao, and then of course ten minutes later came back downstairs asking me how to answer a call. he thought you pressed the red button. well, my guy, if you'd listened to me when i tried to tell you there would be no reason for this stupid back and forth, now would there be. anyways so he sucked.
my dad also came by for lunch but he wasn't really feeling good due to his ongoing health issues so he left early :/ even he thinks the new management company is a total mess and told me to give my two weeks LMFAOOOO. i might, depending on the christmas bonus situation, aka the main reason i keep the job - love that $700+ in cash every december.
when i got home, kyle had downloaded genshin on his pc for me since mine is very much on its last legs at this point and i dont want to heat it up more than necessary, and thus i played genshin for uh.... 5 hours straight? idk that sounds right. did the first chunk of the natlan archon quest (as well as bedtime story, which i hadn't done yet due to my accidental genshin break), and also got my shark baby girl:
a baby! with a shark! very me core. and yes, of course i ship her and kinich. they're VERY me core. both red and frances predicted it before i even started the quest line lmfao. i actually really like the new mechanic with the riding on things thing?? its fun and fluid. new gameplay is always good to freshen stuff up. though after playing zzz for almost two months now, i think i will say i actively like zzz's combat more now. which is crazy considering i am a genshin launch player and STILL PLAYING so lmao. and now i am here.
last week's goals? i accomplished... nothing! lmao. i DID get a decent chunk of the way through 2 different fics, though, so that's cool, i guess.......
hopes for next week, which i am going to limit to one because clearly i am Struggling with so many changes all at once:
uhhh. hm. finish my book? have a good birthday? idk, i'm struggling LOL. hopefully things even out a little more once the meds thing has been settled and i can stop playing medication roulette.
monday: first day of new job! which means i had to get up early to go into the office and pick up my computer etc and be trained on a few things. i assumed i would have to go in a few times in person, but she didn't want to even consider having me go in again until the week of the 9th, which is very nice to hear.
anyways, the day starts a bit rough... my scheduled uber is going to be 20 minutes late, which despite having it come for about 20 minutes earlier than i needed to leave, boston traffic is... well, boston traffic LOL. so i was freaking out. it took me almost half an hour to get a ride after that which just. sucked so bad lmao. i only managed to be like a few minutes late, which with kyle having a broken wrist and also first day at a place i've never been was easily explainable, but it still made me upset bc i am someone who is like. 20 minutes early to EVERYTHING. my dad was in the military it's like. entirely ingrained into me. but it's fine.
my new boss seems nice. we don't really vibe in a great training/teaching way - the way she is teaching is very hands on which is the thing i struggle with the absolute most. i am very much a "let me play around until i hit a wall and then i will ask" kind of learner. she also keeps trying to over explain the parts of the job i'm already way too familiar with, like insurance, and under explain how things like scheduling works, or who treats what, which has been difficult for me, but it's fine. it's... weird? being back at work after not working between most of april and the last week of august. also just. SO MANY MEETINGS. she really wants the meetings to have my camera on which makes so ough. i know she does not care if i am in pajamas because she is too but i haaaaate seeing myself on camera it makes me so. sigh.
but okay, positives so far that i had noted on monday: she's very nice. she is VERY into separation of work/life. never wants me to do overtime unless i am specifically requesting to. doesn't want me to ever look at my email or chats or anything over the weekend. never wants this job to be in person at all. specifically told me i never ever have to go to outside of work events if that's not my scene. encourages some flex time per month for events, appointments, etc, just asks she knows ahead of time. so i think despite the troubles, it'll all work out. and genuinely, i do like this kind of work. i enjoy data entry and i really enjoy getting insurance benefits etc. i like medical admin work! so to have a fully remote job doing all of that at a VERY QUIET clinic in comparison to the old one i worked at until 2023 - literally the monthly patient count is around what the WEEKLY patient count was at my old place - i am very pleased overall.
i just wish i had like? more time? it was literally like i got the offer letter the same day as my first full interview. i would've liked more than one week to prepare for going back to having so much of my time taken up again. and like, yeah, it's not like i am busy the full 8 hours of the day or w/e, but it's still an adjustment. especially having to go back to going to bed at 2-3 rather than 4-5 lol. i know it doesn't seem that much esp if i'm waking up earlier, but my brain/body REALLY do well on sleep between 4-9. it's like. best rest i can get. hence why i've been able to function on only 3 hours for over half the nights for the past few months... yeah pokemon sleep is very angry with me...... anyways. i got home after about an hour on monday, and promptly did jack shit for the rest of the night until around 2am. lmao
tuesday: first day remote! the work day went fine, i don't remember anything in particular. kyle and i were both in weird places emotionally with so many changes so rapidly. oh actually i do remember something. i screwed up scheduling someone LOL bc i'm not used to their EMR yet. it's. very weird. i don't love it. but i can tell once i am more familiar it will be sooooo much easier than the old one i used was. mostly bc the one i was used to had about a million fucking glitches and crashed on an hourly basis. lmfao.
umm what else did i do. play zzz. lament about the fact that my birthday is in a week. lament about the fact that tokyo babylon vol 4 was delayed. oh! i got a VERY welcome package:
yes, ANOTHER orv tarot deck! i was REALLY excited about this one. for one thing, shortest tarot deck production time i've ever seen? preorders were in april. got it last week of august. crazy fast production time! it's also i think the most gorgeous production i've ever seen. everything is beautiful - the shipping box, the deck box, the entirety of the deck. i'm absolutely in LOVE. gonna give this one a proper moon cleansing during the full moon this month, will probably begin sleeping with it under my pillow next week in preparation!
it was also my fave project sekai character's bday! mizuki my beloved!!! legit mizuki is the only reason i play this game at all. i only care about mizuki. i love my tiny trans child that has my exact fashion sense to the point where my bestie jo saw the renewed outfits that came out and went "you literally own this outfit" and i was like yup. that is literally in my closet right now. anyways it was time for birthday pulls, i only needed 3:
mizuki usually likes to come home <33 i'm only missing.... 3? 4* cards. truly incredible. but yeah that was the extent of my tuesday.
wednesday: more work, obviously. getting in the swing of it ig. i stayed up a little later than i should've, probably, but oh well. what can ya do. umm what happened wednesday. oh yeah i was experiencing incredible rage. just getting so angry. bc of the med change. we went up to 25mg of the adhd meds and it just. made me so pissed off? it was very scary tbh i was like ready to punch my husband over literally nothing.
unfortunately i remember very little about wednesday because of the rage??? i just remember being SO angry. like at the drop of a hat. it was bizarre and i usually have a lot of emotional dysregulation but this was very new. my emotional outbursts usually make sense to me even if they are extreme and very quick to change. like i know why something made me cry, or made me get angry, or made me panic. i do NOT understand any of the rage i was feeling from the meds lmao. so wednesday uh. existed!
thursday: little better on the rage. i was realizing fully i was VERY off kilter tho so i tried to be more aware.
thankfully, jason and his roommates were covid free! so over to jason's we went. he actually was in the middle of packing bc he's moving!!! he and the roomies got a much better place in the city. they even have an extra bedroom!!! the plan i hear for the extra bedroom is to turn it half into a cat playroom for creature and half a table top gaming room since the four of them play a lot of ttrpgs together. anyways, i mostly helped jason pack for the evening:
i folded all his clothes to box them up haha. kyle went out and got us all pizza, which was very appreciated bc other thing about the adhd drugs - i forget to eat more than i already forget to eat! so i actually had not eaten a thing the entire day. oops. but anyways, i missed jason. as usual he let me get my mini nap in on the couch with him while kyle was conked out on the other couch lmfao. also we went to 7/11 but this time we drove, shocking. they still don't have any of the stuff they're importing here yet which blows. i want more convenient rice balls!!! anyways that was fun. i actually like helping friends pack so i had a really nice evening. kyle too, he got to relax with the other roomies which he doesn't get the chance to do often. also aria, one of j's roomies just. gave me some eyeliner?? since she transitioned her makeup game has gotten so fucking good i'm always jealous lmao so i asked what brand her eyeliner was bc it is always impeccable. and she was like "oh i actually have an extra one sec" and just hands me some colourpop black eyeliner. bless her. i love her.
oh also the new mtrench album dropped at midnight going into friday! it bops HARD. i'm a huge fan. so happy they're making music still, i really do love them. seeing them live way back when was such a treat, i'd love to do it again with kyle since he's a big fan too thanks to me showing them to him when we were like 15/17..........
friday: it was a weird one. for one thing, kyle called me and we WERE having an okay conversation but then i think i screwed up with The Rage and so he decided to go straight to will's after work which i cannot blame him. i was being very insufferable and difficult. i too would've probably stayed at a friend's house instead of dealing with me. lmao.
work went fine. i ended up having to sneak off half an hour early (oops) bc i had to run to my psych appointment. i really REALLY like my new psychiatrist so even though her schedule sucks (only at this location 2 days a week, no telehealth) i will put up with it bc my god it is so refreshing to have a doctor that actually LISTENS. but anyways i went to her and was like "idk i am really angry a lot right now" and she took my pulse and my blood pressure and my RESTING heart rate was 130 and my blood pressure was the highest i've ever seen it so she was instantly like "okay NO MORE OF THAT DOSE you are stopping that RIGHT NOW" lmao. it was reassuring to know for SURE that it wasn't me being all angry and awful but the meds, but still, scary lmao. i have a lot of body problems i don't need new heart issues thank you very much. anyways so we're trying 2 10mg throughout the day instead bc 18mg didn't make me angry, and the 10mg was wearing off way too quick for me, so the idea is when it starts wearing i take the second and it should get me through the rest of the (work) day.
then i had to panic call my therapist office about billing bc i knew i had a bill coming up that i still hadn't resolved bc i fucked up and forgot to send the paperwork for the out of network exception..... but it's fine they pushed the bills back until the end of october thankfully. after this week actually i can go back to therapy bc my new insurance is accepted at the office thankfully. which is very good lol. but that was a scare bc my bank account is. sorely lacking until i get my paycheck LOL then after all that i mostly spent friday writing.
saturday: the big outing day! we were doing a little bit of traveling... well i say that but we only went down to RI to visit his parents. my mother in law finally retired, so we were going down to celebrate with a nice dinner, but also because this thing called waterfire was happening, and ALSO because it's my birthday coming up too. 3 birds one stone.
firstly, though, my tokyo babylon vol 4 finally came in saturday morning!
i love the cpc versions. they are just SO nicely printed. i really gotta give it to yenpress on this one. i like this printing a ton.
anyways, after kyle helped out jason with some moving logistics, off we went to RI. i was under the impression - as was kyle - that it would just be us and his parents. but his grandmother and aunt were there too. i love my in laws, really, but i am an introvert and they are the loudest group of extraverts i've ever met in my entire life. first thing was while his grandmother and aunt were getting ready to head to dinner, kyle's dad brought out his old drone to give to kyle. okay to explain my fil does filmography for a living and thus owns a newer drone. his old ("old") 2021 drone he no longer needs, so he's giving kyle some lessons and handing it off, which is super cool. they were flying it around for a bit which was neat as hell. i'd never actually seen one up close before:
anyways, dinner next. we went to some korean place (after i embarrassingly tried to walk in and reserve a table at the wrong restaurant bc i was stressed having to look after his grandmother by myself for a bit) but it's fine it all worked out. the food was SO fucking good:
like holy shit i would go there all the time if i lived close. 10/10 EASY. anyways the dinner itself was... chaotic as usual. to explain, kyle's aunt is extremely, terrifyingly rich, which means she is SO out of touch its something else. very well meaning, very kind, but oh my god i dislike talking to her for long periods of time. his grandmother is also SO sweet and she's really going through it after losing her husband last year and i get it but she's very. um. idk the right word for it. i really do like his family i just find them hard to be around. his parents not so much, i lived with them for so long i am fairly comfortable with them (as comfortable as i can be with parents that aren't my dad, i mean). anyways we also got dessert:
you may be wondering why there is such better lighting on my seisubs. it is bc i was not going to pull them out of my bag with his aunt and grandmother there, but kyle INSISTED, going "no you have to get out your little guys!!!!!" and then i did and my father in law was like "oh i'll put my flashlight on for better lighting" bc again, photo guy, and i was held at gunpoint to take a picture. which i did quickly. then kyle's aunt goes ".... is this a thing? do people do this?" and i tried to say that it was a thing and i wasn't the only person who did this, but then kyle had to make sure she knew it was a Specific Brand of Weeb thing and i was going to die lmfao. really though it was fun his aunt was REAL confused but she had the spirit (told me about a couple she saw on vacation in egypt that took a picture of them with this set of teddy bears in every place they went to).
the actual waterfire thing was SO beautiful i was blown away. this kyle's aunt went home for, which i am secretly grateful for bc i DO like her i promise but she also stresses me out with the way she talks. lmao. anyways the thing was really really pretty and relaxing. i had chosen to wear my one singular pair of flats with my outfit which was a good choice bc i did not know RI had so much cobblestone LOL i should've tho. but yeah please look at this:
so we stayed and did this for awhile, just walking up and down the river looking at the fire and listening to the very calming music. there are legit gondolas like from venice that take people on rides down the river and i really want to do that next time lmao. then we headed back to my in law's place bc she's gotten pie for me as well as a small birthday gift, which was just. extremely thoughtful. every year, she gets me birthday pie bc i hate cake :' ) it's very kind of her. it was really good too!
she also got me a gift card and a new book, and his grandmother gave me a very sweet card and some money as well which is very appreciated. also, my mother in law used shark wrapping paper for me for my book, which i was stupid excited about LOL. kyle and i headed home and got back at around midnight-ish, i got my spotify monthly stats:
and then went to bed bc i had part time job in the morning.
sunday: DISASTER WORK DAY. i won't get into it too much bc i am EXHAUSTED by it and it is also almost 3am so i should probably start wrapping this up? lmao. but okay firstly since the lobby flooded due to some pipes bursting they had 12 really large machine fan things taking out the water. keep in mind these pipes burst TWO WEEKS AGO. WHY ON EARTH ARE THE MACHINES STILL NEEDED? anyways they were really, horribly loud and droning, it basically instantly gave me a migraine. i had to use my noise canceling ear buds, but i had to keep taking them out to talk to people, and noise canceling can only do so much when the noise is that loud and overwhelming and CONSTANT. as kyle puts it, it's a sensory nightmare.
so that sucked! the phones, which broke what, a month ago? still aren't fixed. they TAPED THE THERMOSTAT UP so i couldn't adjust the temp so i was boiling alive all shift, and then there was. this fucking guy. who needed a jump start and asked me (i have no car, i cannot even drive. i do not have a license. lmfao), then he asked if i knew mechanics in the area, which i don't, because i don't drive and kyle just uses somewhere near our apartment for the car, then he asked if triple a would jump start it. this guy just moved into the building mind you. so i had to be EXTRA nice. so i was like okay yeah triple a. then he calls them from his apartment and they come but can't contact him so they leave again. reasonable. he comes down all angry, saying that he'll just sit in the lobby to keep an eye on it for their second attempt that he called in. but then they didn't come because he didn't give them a phone number. so he goes back upstairs and gets his cell phone and i charge it whatever. i tell him to just give them that number and he starts interrupting me and anyways i'm RAMBLING but this dude was really rude and condescending and cut me off when i tried to explain how to answer a call on his phone because he claimed he did not ever use it (which was probably true considering it was an iphone 6 from 10 years ago lmfao, and then of course ten minutes later came back downstairs asking me how to answer a call. he thought you pressed the red button. well, my guy, if you'd listened to me when i tried to tell you there would be no reason for this stupid back and forth, now would there be. anyways so he sucked.
my dad also came by for lunch but he wasn't really feeling good due to his ongoing health issues so he left early :/ even he thinks the new management company is a total mess and told me to give my two weeks LMFAOOOO. i might, depending on the christmas bonus situation, aka the main reason i keep the job - love that $700+ in cash every december.
when i got home, kyle had downloaded genshin on his pc for me since mine is very much on its last legs at this point and i dont want to heat it up more than necessary, and thus i played genshin for uh.... 5 hours straight? idk that sounds right. did the first chunk of the natlan archon quest (as well as bedtime story, which i hadn't done yet due to my accidental genshin break), and also got my shark baby girl:
a baby! with a shark! very me core. and yes, of course i ship her and kinich. they're VERY me core. both red and frances predicted it before i even started the quest line lmfao. i actually really like the new mechanic with the riding on things thing?? its fun and fluid. new gameplay is always good to freshen stuff up. though after playing zzz for almost two months now, i think i will say i actively like zzz's combat more now. which is crazy considering i am a genshin launch player and STILL PLAYING so lmao. and now i am here.
last week's goals? i accomplished... nothing! lmao. i DID get a decent chunk of the way through 2 different fics, though, so that's cool, i guess.......
hopes for next week, which i am going to limit to one because clearly i am Struggling with so many changes all at once:
uhhh. hm. finish my book? have a good birthday? idk, i'm struggling LOL. hopefully things even out a little more once the meds thing has been settled and i can stop playing medication roulette.
